Heartbreak

 

 How does it feel when you find out that the person you wished one day would be your life partner was never even your love partner? Ask me...

Love is a stupid thing you know, something we all fall for but one day love is the one that makes as fall into a dark nightmare. I hate love. You wanna know why I am telling this right? Ok then, let me tell you my story.

I loved someone whom I knew from the moment I was born. Of course I couldn't speak or identify, but he was that much close to me. Years passed and slowly I don't know how I fell in love with him. One day we were in a relationship. Sounds like a dream doesn't it? It was indeed a dream. He never loved me, only used me. We sometimes couldn't talk for weeks but still we could understand each other by the look in our eyes. We still do...He doesn't know yet that I have got know that he is cheating on me, but still we talk through our eyes. That connection is still present. I don't think he understands that or else he would have never done something like this.

You might ask how I am feeling right now, so to tell the truth I am breaking apart from inside. There is an awkward feeling inside my stomach and my chest is heavy (I have already cried my heart out but still the heaviness doesn't go). 

But to tell the truth I don't wanna die or do something like that. Rather I want to live, happily single and just wait for the right person to arrive in my life. And I think every heartbroken person should do it.I also want to just stay quiet...coz I don't know what to say to him. I pray to God that he has a good love life without any problems. Honestly I am gonna let him go from my life.

Next time I fall in love I am gonna love someone who is heartbroken so that he will know how it feels...

Lots of Love 💓💔

P.S.: I wanna quote a few lines I just say in Google - "Everyone says that love hurts but that's not true. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Everyone confuses these things with love but in reality, love is the only thing in this world that covers up and makes us feel wonderful again."

I wish to share these with everyone not to get likes and followers, but to share my feelings all the heartbroken people out there, to reach to them and I hope I will be able to.

The above was written on 29/09/20. Today it is 9/12/21.

And all I would wanna say is that I was stupid back then. Now I have found the right person for me and am so happy. He still haunts me and threatens to destroy my life but I thing about my bf and I get all this strength to not be bothered by him. 

I just look back and smile to myself, Oh god! I have changed so much and I love this change.